I need to know

It's not Marc Anthony, but --- yes,
I really need to know. Why????
Why people disappoint each other?
Why do we have to disappoint each other.
I need to know. I really need to know.
Because ---
There I am, in the middle of the night,
with wide eyes, blinking meaninglessly, then
starring into the darkness, twisting and turning,
unsuccessfully meditating.
My sweet and simple life,
now I have tainted with the most innocent flowers of kindness.

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