Confession

Sorry for never been too cheerful
to the world.

I don't know why
it has always been gloomy and moody.

Now that I got a chance to look back
a life time collection of best loved songs ---
and noticed that most of them are just about a broken heart
and longing for the happiness.
Yes, "the happiness" is what I want to mean explicitly.
Am I bargaining too much for my life?
Is my expectation too high?
Or did I have none of the ambitions?
What did I want the most?
What was the most important thing for me
to achieve in my life?
Are we all the same ---
feeling like something is a missing at a point in our lives?

I ask myself
why I am not too ambitious in the morning
but at night
I am wondering if I am expecting too much.
I am sorry
if I could not bring happiness in your life,
but I am never sorry about the fact that
I was once in your life.

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